A new blog.

Through doing this for school, i have discovered that blogs are actually pretty cool to have.  Needless to say once my English class has ended, this blog will go down.  In turn for doing this, I am going to create a new blog.  This one will be completely done on my own free will.  This one will contain post that are spontaneous and awesome and completely 100% honest and true.  It will hopefully be entitled "Your Poison" simply because that title just sounds super bad ass and i am all about being a bad ass.  So in conclusion, if you some what enjoy reading my blog, please subscribe to the new one.  I think it just might blow your socks off.

Being behind

Lately it seems like i am behind in a lot of areas especially in school.  I have found out the main reason behind this.  I am lazy.  Pure fact, i am lazy.  At the end of the day I do not go and do my homework, I either plop down in a chair or my bed and go to sleep only to wake up and find out that i had homework that had to do that is not finished.  Am I wrong for this?  I think not because i do not get home until eight or nine at night.  it sucks bad.  I can not wait for this to end.  After it has ended i can go back to being lazy for a few weeks and feel content.  its going to be magical.

construction

The world of construction sucks bad.  Word of the wise, do not attempt to make a career out it unless the person is strong.  It is the hardest thing to do ever.  I recently went and did a construction job outside of Salem, South Carolina to rebuild a boat dock.  A tree had fallen on to it due to a bad storm.  We got hired to come in and rebuild this dock.  Needless to say, we had to cut the tree into several different sections and drag it on to land, then we had to rip the pieces that were broken off of the dock.  Then after that had to put several boards on the dock so that we could lay several twelve by ten boards on to the dock so that we could build the deck.  To top it all off,  we are still not finished.  We still have to put more smaller boards on the dock so that the dock's deck can be completed and then we have to make modifications on the lake house itself.  Now after all that work was completed, i am barely able to move any part of my body due to me being sore.  If any person is interested in construction, think twice  before deciding to go into this field.

I am done!

Lately I am tired.  I am tired of consistently thinking that something right is going to go my way for once. I recall last week saying "Things are looking up." Well i was wrong once again.  When i think i got a chance to connect with someone, that illusion get shattered by a big fucking rock.  Now i am at the mercy of life being right once again and myself having to pay the piper.  Now i am done.  I am done with the bullshit, i am done with trying, i am done with thinking that its gonna work and having all of my hopes and dreams being shattered in front of my eyes. I am tired of being hurt.  If i did not have the morals that i have i could actually seeing myself load the gun and pulling the trigger, but i can not do it.  i just do not have it in my will to end my own life. Now i will find myself not communicating with anyone, making funny jokes, or anything  in that matter.  I will have myself being quiet and never saying another word.  If i do not talk then i can not get hurt anymore.  i vow to never say another thing in my lifetime.

people always make me laugh

its funny how i thought someone was my friend and then turns out to get mad at me over one stupid thing and then loses contact with our friends, makes contact, apologizes to them for what happened and then does not apologize to me.  What kind of poor piece of shit throws his friends away over a girl?  I mean really, friends are hard to come by and someone wants to throw that away over a piece of ass.  Well then God as my witness, i apologize for ever believing that some gimmick theft person could be my friend.  I now know the truth though and i am happy now a days.  I can wake up with smile pretending that ex friend does not exist anymore.  i can actually say that i am living my life and things could not possibly get any better.

the world is piseed off

Today I want to rant about some things that should be addressed.  I know that there a lot of things that piss people off, but understand when I say this, THE WORLD IS PISSED OFF!  In all honesty if i am not pissed off someone else is.  Since I am  on the topic of things that piss people off, I am going to tell you one thing that really just makes me so angry that it could drive me to commit a horrible crime.  The thing that makes me really angry is prejudice and stereotyping jerk offs.  I mean really, those people are the people that have it in their mind that they are better than everyone.  I do not judge people by how they dress or things they may do, i judge them by how they treat people.  When a employee is talking to one of their colleagues and says" I hate potheads," or "I hate Juggalos." Who cares what they think?  I mean when did their job description change from being teacher to God?  When the hell did your word become a standard?  I will proudly say that I have smoked pot and that I am a Juggalo.  Personally when you say that to someone and a student hears that does that student think that is grounds for a lawsuit or a good ass beating?  In all honesty I think it qualifies for both.  In my opinion all racist, prejudice, stereotyping people should just be given the death sentence.  People who bash on other people because of who they are are not heard, but people who speak to make peace, be kind, and live in harmony have been heard.  Prime example, Dr. Martin Luther King Jr, he was heard for  what he had to say because it was truth and justice. I close with saying this one little saying, "you may be pissed off now, but the whole world is pissed off about something."

Walk Away by Five Finger Death Punch

Since the day I have began listening to the band they have always never disappointed me.  Their lyrics have been like a lot of bands.  To me they have spoke the truth.  Today i would like to talk about one song that they have that has a lot of meaning in my life and it makes me feel like that when it happens that it is not my fault.

They have a song off of their second album entitled "The Way of The Fist."  The song is called  "Walk Away" and in my opinion it is just one of the best songs in the world.  The chorus of the song is what catches my attention.

"Just walk away make it easy on yourself,
Just walk away please release me from this hell,
Just walk away there's just nothing left to feel,
Just walk away pretend that none of this is real, "

To me, these lyrics tell me something that makes me fell like that what i tried to accomplish and did not succeed was not my fault.  I used the lyrics on someone one time and they tried to tell me that they did not walk away from me.  If she had not, then why did she just break off all contact with me?  I mean she had ways to get a hold of me and she did nothing. To me she just walked away.  To end this I say, Thank you Five Finger Death Punch, thank you for helping me survive this crazy place we called the world.